If I can tell you how I really feel
 I would tell you that I'm reeling
 And I just can't understand
 How you backhanded me like that
 You can't walk away
 From the things that made you who are today
 The good, the bad, the reality check
 Reality check, check, check, check, check
 Check, check, check, check
 Check, check, check, check
 Reality check

I was pushed to the limit, misunderstood
Let's lift, and take a look under my hood
So you can see my thought process, I'm all about progress
I can give a fuck about the grapevine
Im too efficient to waste time
With a proclivity for productivity
So im not the best boyfriend, cousin or brother
This my only way, I know no other
Im runnin' from mediocrity
It shapes my philosophy
A means to an end, not mean to my friends
And to my loved ones, im not tryin' to rub you wrong
But this is just what im on
You all just collateral damage
And how can I manage
Im stuck, a visionary who must be available
So what I can I say to you
Besides pray for me
And if they could, this is what they'd say to me

 If I can tell you how I really feel
 I would tell you that I'm reeling
 And I just can't understand
 How you backhanded me like that
 You can't walk away
 From the things that made you who are today
 The good, the bad, the reality check
 Reality check, check, check, check, check
 Check, check, check, check
 Check, check, check, check
 Reality check

I was always so driven, I had to be the best
It was just in my nature chasin’ salaries & sex
Till they was captured
My reality check, is relationships I fractured
But in this life I’m livin’, it’s the price of ambition
My sight is tunnel vision, it might, make a difference
If I can find some balance
But that’s the challenge
Or instead of reprimandin’
Be understandin’
So i’m not the best son, nephew or grandchild
Livin’ in fear of becoming a manchild
But no second childhoods
You should know I come from a wild hood
And i’m not goin’ back
So here’s my chance
To further my circumstance 
And sow my seeds
And show my seeds 
That this is the way
Stay astute, think big picture, live for today
Still this is what they say 

 If I can tell you how I really feel
 I would tell you that I'm reeling
 And I just can't understand
 How you backhanded me like that
 You can't walk away
 From the things that made you who are today
 The good, the bad, the reality check

  I have always been
  One to respect the name I have
  Rest the name I have, oh
  You can tear me down
  But His love surrounds the life I live
  I mean no harm
  Won’t let this change me too hard
  You know where i’ve been
  Treat me like i’m no one 
  But i’m constant like the sun, and i’m here until the end

 If I can tell you how I really feel
 I would tell you that I'm reeling
 And I just can't understand
 How you backhanded me like that
 You can't walk away
 From the things that made you who are today
 The good, the bad, the reality check
 If I can tell you how I really feel
 I would tell you that I'm reeling
 And I just can't understand
 How you backhanded me like that
 You can't walk away
 From the things that made you who are today
 The good, the bad, the reality check
 Reality check, check, check, check, check
 Check, check, check, check
 Check, check, check, check
 Reality check

And I just wanna thank you the listener
For allowin’ me to tell my story
From me
twain lo, Hailey Ward, Realistic